Together vs Carefree.
Do I have to choose? Usually when I try, I end up with neither. I'm naturally carefree. But when there are other people to care for or things that I want in life, carefree doesn't serve. I need to be together.
But then I lose myself! I lose the things people like about me.
I'm focusing on the problem, not the solution.
What I've been trying is to appear carefree but work on being together. When I appear carefree, I feel stressless and fun and happy-go-lucky. When I accomplish together-ness things, I feel stressless and fun and happy-go-lucky. It's just getting myself together that's the hard part, the part where I feel stressed and boring and my mind fills up with lists and failures and embarrassments and eating disorders and growing old...
I do happen to be in a carefree phase. Trying hard not to let that be careless...
And just as a side note, Glee fucking rocks.
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